First day of the New Year

Hi family & friends!
I hope this note finds each of you happy & healthy on this first day of 2009. Since I received chemo yesterday, I slept six hours prior to the midnight count down. I didn't have to set an alarm because I just wasn't sleepy. (Steve was out & I had to wake him up a few minutes ahead of time).

The sleeping after chemo seems to work. I sleep past any nausea or vomiting, usually waking up just a tiny 'normal'. I'm thinking the best way to handle Navalebine, is to rest constantly.

While getting my vitals taken, yesterday, Steve & I thought to test what my oxygen saturation level would be, without oxygen. With oxygen, the levels are anywhere from 99%-100%. Without oxygen, and taking 5-6 steps, my level drop down to the mid 80's. Proving, that I still need to remain on oxygen. I still have "slight", I mean super small, crackles in my lungs, but nothing to impair me. In fact, I eat with no oxygen now (tubing gets in the way), and during the middle of the night, I often wake up with the oxygen & tubing on the floor. Wonder if that's why I'm waking up, because I need help. Steve & I often think I'm doing better daily, especially if you take into account where I was a month ago. Yesterday's check, just showed us, that we are getting a little bit ahead of ourselves, due to being eager! I don't think anything is wrong with wanting to be eager, wanting to be back to 'normal'.

Officially knowing that I"m not 100%, is when I get upset, even mad at what was done to me. Then the snowball starts rolling down hill, when I think about EVERYTHING that happened to me. Since being that angry doesn't do me any good, I focus on remaining positive. After all, I'm alive, and that almost wasn't the case.

On that note, I want to thank my husband & son publicly, for saving my life! Listening to the story of what happened, it was their constant vigilance & encouragement& plain ole will power, that saved me. There are a lot of friends to thank as well, (some drove hours, two different days in a row to see me), but I was either intubated, or so drugged up that I don't remember them coming to support, or even give Steve a cup of coffee. (Can I share with you that, I don't even remember my father being here; he was here two days)I really am thankfully for my friends! I know all your prayers have helped, so if you can, please continue to remember me in them.

I reckon I got a bit off subject! I apologize for that. With the new year, first day of new beginning, I can't help but feel blessed, thankful, and encouraged. That's probably why I got off subject, because I ended 2008 needing to thank EVERYBODY, for rallying around me and my family.

I plan on waking up everyday, in 2009, appreciating the fact that I even woke up! I hope you have a blessed 2009.